Random Thoughts

* i miss talking with my mama, she's the only one who truly understands me despite all our misunderstandings

* i miss our hugs, seriously nothing is better than those hugs

*i feel bad for people living way back when...they had no painkillers. how the heck did anyone survive w/o ibuprofen or Tylenol?

* what did they use instead of pads? a piece of cloth?

* I want to get up and travel the world which is unlikely and that makes me sad
* I'm too sad to write anymore but at least i have my painkillers!

I can never match all my mom does

by the time i get to bed i'm exhausted. I'm up all day on my feet cooking, cleaning, doing dishes, laundry,feeding my little siblings and just when i start thinking i'm done it starts all over again. why you ask am i all of a sudden such the housewife. my mama has been diagnosed with a several galtas or blood clots in her artries. while she's away getting treatment and yarab yeshfeha wyrg3ha belsalama* i'm here having to take care of everything. i never knew that being a housewife is such a fulltime job and it's not even a 9-5 thing this is a 24/7 type of thing. we used to have this woman in our community ( she's legand) mashallah, she had two kids, was pregnant, had her masters was studying for her Phd, had the quran memorized and gave like 2 halaqas a week one at university and another at the masjid. now that is a superwomen!

I never really thought about all the stuff my mom had to do, not i'm not really a spoiled brat that sits on her butt all day doing nothing but i certainly didn't do all the stuff she did all in one day i'd do the dishes twice, vacuum maybe and call it a day. you know karma's a B%&#@ because now that i'm doing all this stuff and i ask my sister to do something she tells me " well, i did the dishes" like that's the end of the work. I miss you mama >3

* May Allah cure her and return her to us

The cat that could speak

I really should start a dream journal with all the weird dreams i've been having. Last night i guess i was thinking about kittens too much because i had a dream that I was in our house in Egypt and i had about 5 cats and the cool part was, i could talk to them. i don't think i spoke cat but they spoke human! how awesome is that except that it was a dream and i woke up without any cats to talk to and no house in Egypt.






look its my speaking kitten. ain't he adorable. i named my imaginary speaking cat taco bell since taco bell is as healthy as it gets. two birds with one stone.




Here's a cat that can actually speak.

where i say stuff that noone gets the heck i'm talking about

sometimes it takes people who are against you for you to realise your dreams. I'm not really trying to be philasophical here but it really just came upon me how sometimes when someone is so against what your doing and telling you, "you have little to no chance of realizing your dreams and making it happen" that you become more determined than ever to prove them wrong and tell yourself " yes i can and i will!" and this is when you really and truelly start putting plans down on what you have to do to reach that point and ultimatly be able to say " In your face! i did it" in a nice way of course :P when and if i do realise my dreams and make them come true inshallah i will come back and tell you what it is i'm talking about, and that's a promise.

Bad news

I have got some bad news for some people, like myself. I tried mapquesting the directions from where i live ( canada) to Egypt and it doesn't work. yahh i know. bummerr!!

scaring others and such stuff

since i was a wee little kid i loved the water. I practically lived in it. i remember going every year to the Mediterranean with the family and family friends who had a little boy a year older than me. During those vacations i would pick up those little crabs that washed up obn shore and put them on the poor boys head, then i would run around doing my maniac laugh, it was pure pleasure. so when we went to the pool the other day i expected just as much if not more from my little 3-year old sister. It came as a shock to me when she looked at the water and screamed! she is definatly nothing like me.

We the youth can and we will

I just came back from a workshop/lecture type thing that was going on at our masjid tonight. the topic was youth involvement in the community. to keep matters short I'll just highlight on some of the main points. we were asked for the reasons why youth aren't involved in the community and the reasons ranged from everything, peer pressure to better things to do such as going shopping or watching a movie; then the question became well why is it important to have youth involved and that too had many answers such as having stronger faith. I think the main thing that stuck in my mind was when we were asked, when sydna bilal, somaya, and other sa7aba companions of the prophet stand in front of God on that given day and they're asked what have you done for Islam? how did you spread the message for generations to come? they can testify for their actions but when it's our turn will we be able to do the same? i sincerely hope so. while the pleasures of this world can last for a while we have to remember that its a only a passing phase and there are spots in Jannah available we just have to be ready to pay for them.
I think many of the sheiks and speakers are trying to emphasize this point of how the youth at the time of the prophet were the ones who mostly helped bring forth the message of Islam and while they had harsh barriers such as torture and rejection from the community, i think i can say we have it somewhat better and easier on us.

inshallah tomorrow the girls have decided to have a meeting and set up plans for activities to be done to attract the youth so that should be fun inshallah, especially that our youth center in the masjid has this big flat screen and a wii :D