Different Personalities, Same Person.

Life has a weird way of letting you experience all the things you swore you would never do.
Perhaps it's drugs or maybe something as little as trying a particular food or looking at life from the eyes of a particular ideology. Then all of a sudden you look out and you are everything you said you never would be. Sometimes it's good and you wonder at your previous state of mind or what you would call close mindedness. Other times, you become that thing you hated most, you embody its essence and breathe its soul.
We all experience it to some degree or another, sometimes noticeable other times not.
I guess where i'm heading with this is that I've noticed myself being that person who looks back and discovers that she's a whole other person. The one who's almost shocked at the changes which came little by little to all of a sudden open my eyes and find the person who i am today.
It's not in a bad way mind you, I'm actually glad to have reached where i am today.
and to this, cheers all around!

Figment of my imagination

If this life is a figment of my imagination
then i am twisted in every sort of way
If my life is a figment of my imagination
where my mind makes up the reality around me
then i have a sick sense of humor.
and Oh God, i'm surprised that
i haven't yet given myself a tumor,
If i'm the "primes cause" as they say
and the things i perceive are
the only ones which i can prove
then why the hell am i creating
alll.this.pain!
Because somehow i like
creating a reality of a man
who is perfect in every sense of way
who is my idea of prince charming
you could say
then i add a minor detail of how
he has no interest in me.
Moreover, to add some sugar to the cake
i'll put together some other guys who like ME
and whom i have no interest in.
and because my mind is really something
I'll imagine, greed, famine, hate and war
then i say it is so that i cannot have a hand
in changing that reality
or if i do, it is on no massive scale.
That odd sense of humor
decrees it so that
i can imagine a reality
in which i cannot bring forth
unicorns, neither can i fly or
breath underwater
or do anything intrinsically
interesting!
or have it go my way.
Rather it seems my imagination
overall dwells on suffering
and takes its sweet pleasure in it.
it is crippled and unsupportive  
and if the life i see
is a figment of my imagination,
then we're all screwed.

Hella annoying

I love meeting new people, making new friends, learning new ideas and discussing new things. Despite all that I am very naive and too trusting and sometimes its the friends that you've had for years are the ones who let you down more than others. and it's annoying as hell.
I hope all you wonderful online people are doing well, go get some sunshine from time to time. I'm gonna go back to my previous state of MIA :)

2012 the year of doom

Ultimate destruction is our fate. Woohoo! now that i have your undivided attention i would like to wish bloggers sitting in-front of their computer screens,  a life full of meaningful blogging. One where your posts always turn out funny and witty and the people they know in real life vs. those they know on the online realm don't mix. Unless that's your thing of course. Internet connections all around, Cheers!

I checked on last years post for New Years and while i didn't dance in no rain or have a fire going in my backyard this time around, i did watch like 10 episodes of The Big Bang Theory and theorized about the downhill spiral in which the United States is heading with the passing of their Bill which grants indefinite detention to anyone on US soil, without the tedious need to present any evidence. How lovely!

So if i may, I think I'll actually write down some resolutions this year

1- Get into law school
2- work on a humanitarian project and actually help my country
3- memorize till Al-Mu2minun
4- Actually be open-minded about people who want to propose

Simple enough? let's do this! :D

Will not model for food.

I'm seeing a trend here, I mostly write when I'm super busy. I have a million things to do and then I'm like, "wait, i have a blog don't i?"
because logically that's what you do.
Hey, at least i have a cover page of one of my papers done. Check.

so the other day i had a photoshoot which was super exciting and interesting. I never thought modelling actually required talent, like wahhh? i know!  Things which i have no innate skill at, not to mention that  it's tiring as hell. Change into this, go over there, stand like that. I have trouble taking orders from people Ok! I haven't gotten all the photos back yet so I'm not sure how they turned out but I'm ubber excited.

So here's a sneak peak. 

Other than that it's mostly school, school, school, work, meeting, school, work. 

Personal checklist: 

- Essay Proposal 

- Prepare discussion questions for meeting 

- Conference lecture outline on Egyptian Revolution

- Book hall for event

- recruit people for flash mob 

- Cover letter and Resume 

- Breathe 

Things that make me happy

Many times we feel that if we have this or that we will be happy. We have a whole list of things which if we accumulate will no doubt make us the happiest people alive. In that rush of materialistic daze, we forget about the small things, tiny in that matter, but which make us the happiest of all.

It puts a smile on my face to be walking and to see a random person smile to themselves and then I'm walking around smiling to myself as well.

The other day while walking an old couple were walking as well, all of a sudden the husband stopped, bent down and kissed the top of her head and then continued walking next to her. I melted.

While at the mall a couple of weeks back, i saw a little boy no more than 5 walking with his mom, he looked at me winked, and did the whole pointing/guns hand move, clicking his tongue at the same time and continued on ass if nothing had happened. It made my day!

While enjoying the October Sun at school, one of the school workers mowing the lawn turned to me and said
 " beautiful day ain't it, enjoy it!"

Maybe I'm one those people who are just so easily pleased and amused, but i take it that most people are. Give it a try and smile or say something nice to the next person you see. It might make their day.

What I'm currently doing

Sitting at a table in the school library trying to write philosophically about Plato's Republic and the concept of the Philosopher king. 
Sweating it out because despite the 100 degrees weather our school decides that they want to turn the heat on. Good one you guys! 
Attempting to stay awake because i somehow thought it was a good idea not to sleep after an all-nighter. 
Drinking my Ice Cap and wanting to go pee but too lazy to actually get up. 
What might you be doing on this lovely evening?