A Midsummers Momment

Throwing my flip flops to the side i sat on the swing and dug my toes into the dirt beneath my feet.
i pushed back as far as i could get, swinging back and forth i remembered the days when swinging on the swings meant long conversations.
It was where important decisions were made, and friendships renewed.
It was the reconnection with nature as your legs tried touching the trees,the breeze tickled your face, and the sunshine danced around your shoulders.
It was there that Rainbows were watched after long rain showers, making the smiles creep slowly on your face.
Where when you were overwhelmed it was just easy to swing it all away.
Where screams echoed on who could jump the furthest.
where you believed that swinging high enough maybe you could touch the clouds.
It was on the swings that i started my summer.

<3

sacrifice. and not the kind where you kill an animal.

I can't for the life of me fathom the idea of sacrifice for a spouce or someone you love. granted i've never fallen in love so maybe i don't know what it's like. probably the only sacrifice i know of on a big scale is my sacrifice for God and even then i gotta admit i'm not doing such a great job.
It really mistfies me, how people would do it so willingly too. I know when my parents ask me to do something i'll do it but i might not be too happy about it. I'll force myself to do it because well it's my parents asking me. or maybe i'm just a selfish person.

happy 5th of July on the 6th

Today is the 6th of July and this is me reminding you in case you forgot. seriously, how time runs.

Unlike most Americans who normally do fireworks on the 4th of July my neighborhood decides to do it the night after, you know just to confuse everyone else out there; well anyways i went on the front porch, pulled up a chair and sat down for the show, The moon was full and there was a slight breeze that tickled my face and swayed the trees around me, i could hear my mom and grandma laughing about something in the background and lights lit up the sky from all the fireworks.Everything clicked together and i truly felt at peace. it was a moment but that was enough to make me smile and thank Allah for all i have, even if its not all my dreams come true I've got my family and that's more than enough for me.

I Miss her

It's so sad to know that you're losing a friend and losing touch with them but can't really do anything about it. All the memories serve as just that, they're now something of the past. but what truly breaks my heart is when this is happening with your best friend, the one who ceased to be that and turned into a sister, a family member really. This is exactly what is happening to me. We went from living on the same street, to living 2 streets away, to about 10 minutes away, to 12 hours, and now about 3 days. we used to see each other everyday, even after i moved we used to talk almost everyday and now, barely talk at all. I'm probably the least person to know anything about her right now. ugh i hate feeling sappy and I'm probably leaning towards being cheesy but hey there's a chance of zero that she'll probably visit here so i can go on as i want. At the beginning i didn't realize how much we've really grown apart and I'm afraid to even think about it. What is even more sad is the way we used to say we'll go to the same university, be roommates, and probably end up living next door to each other, and now look at us; we're not likely to get any further than we already are. we used to feel disbelief at those who promised to be friends forever but left time to take its toll. maybe it's my fault, maybe its hers. I'll never really know until i talk to her.